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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:26

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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I was scared of men, in general

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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But, we were locked up after school.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I have no regrets .

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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She married twice! .

As i do to all so called friends.?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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It was going to be , some day.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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She was in good health!

I said to her

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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(And it was in our own minds.)

She wouldn,t have been !

Comes on , in middle age.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And i lived it daily.

I was 9 years of age.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I could never make a relationship work though!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He knew the spot.

So, i spoilt her more .

One cannot live in the past .

I waited trembling.

But it wasn’t much.

I couldn’t, believe it.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He resisted the act ,that day.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

We all went to grammer schools

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im still living with it.

Who then, do I blame.?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

So whats the point in blame.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Put me off passion for life!!

She found it foreign!.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I don,t even have a pension.

Would this be the day?

Especially a lifetime of it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Ive learnt so much.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My family never makes their pension either.

We were not on the streets..

I was very sick at this time too.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

What did i know ?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I write beautiful poetry .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

When she asked me how she looked .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

All the time i was locked up.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My life is so biszare .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I think the readers, may guess!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

This is soul school!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was seconnd youngest,

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I will be 64.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She loved him until the end.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.